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“I’m sick to my stomach” – who said it, why, and about what?

It’s not science, it’s semantics, and it’s what Rocket Science refers to as “colorful language”. Colorful language is intuitive, so to one person it kicks up a red a flag, to another its meaningless. In OBLIVION I discuss the significance of “walking on eggshells”. But here’s another.

The term “sick to my stomach” occurs four times in the Discovery Documents, and I seem to remember Watts saying something similar during his flaky Sermon on the Porch. It’s a telling aphorism because pregnancy would make a woman sick to her stomach, and so would drowning in oil. If Watts felt sick to his stomach he didn’t look it. So where did the expression come from?

On August 8th, the same day Watts told Shan’ann he didn’t want the baby, Shan’ann tearfully offloaded to Sara Nudd how [understandably] sick she felt. She desperately tried to have sex with Watts in a bid to smooth things over and sort things out. His rejection confirmed her worst fears, hence the sickening feeling [which proved totally justified] in the pit of her stomach.

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On the afternoon of August 13th, Watts used the exact same expression to describe how he felt about his missing family.

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Even then Watts claimed to be “praying”. It does make one wonder whether Watts picked up the phrase from Shan’ann’s iCloud and adopted it as the “right-sounding” way to express concern, or alarm. We know throughout the aftermath Watts not only failed to shed a single tear, but seemed unable to muster the appropriate emotion. When reminded of this after his failed polygraph, Watts melodramatically sniffed [just once] – his version of showing grief.

Watts also used the term [twice in rapid succession] when FBI agent Coder reminded Watts that what they were doing was looking for his family. In the context of Watts worrying about how things looked, and how he looked, he fielded the terms – as if using the right words was like waving a magic wand [like the Thrive promoters did], and that was enough.

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  1. Laura Thompson

    He told Tammy Lee he was sick to his stomach at the very beginning of the pre-polygraph interview they did on August 15th. After he failed it and she and Grahm were both in the room with him, she told him something to the effect of, “there’s a reason you’re feeling sick to your stomach; when you hold things in, it can make you feel sick.” Or, words to that effect, I’m too lazy to go find that exact portion of the interview. (I just happened to listen to it again yesterday. )

    • nickvdl

      Right you are Laura. It’s a pity a polygraph can’t measure levels of “sick to your stomach”. He sure didn’t look or sound too unhappy during that polygraph. And you know now, given that his First Confession was bullshit as well as the second, how uncomfortable did he really feel with what he’d done? Know what I mean? If he truly felt sickened by what he’d done there would be remorse. Real remorse would be tears of remorse and authentic grief. We never saw any of that. I don’t think it was sick to his stomach he was feeling, but a sickness in his heart that had gotten the better of him.

  2. Gwyn Sancho Blackwood

    Omg!!! I just finished the book Fatal Charm by Carlton Smith. Guess what dear Randy Roth said on the stand? He was sick to his stomach as he methodically deflated the raft where he just drowned his wife. He did this as they were trying to resuscitate his blue, cold, dead wife. SICK TO HIS STOMACH. Is this a “thing” with narcissist killers??? Boy, oh, boy.

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